To my Almost!💗

I didn’t write anything about you because I never really thought that we will get to face this time of our lives. I am sorry for everything. Sorry for the things that I did that made you cry. I should have done better. Thank you for setting the standard on how women should be treated. You made me feel secured and loved in the best ways possible that you never complained about my weight gain. You never complained about my messy hair and my “I don’t care” attitude, instead, you showed me how to do things.

The time that I met you wasn’t perfect. I was recovering from an emotionally abusive relationship. I wasn’t ready to be in another one specially with another black guy (you know what this means). It was the worst days. Then I met you. You taught me how to believe in love again. The simple gesture of making my pictures your screen saver, parading me all over the town and introducing me to your family and friends. I felt so beautiful, I felt so loved and for the first time ever, I finally said, I think I found the man of my dreams. You are so smart, witty and full of wisdom that always left me speechless until now. I can’t win arguments with you right? ☺️ You love your mother and family, above anything else, you love God. You showed me that everything gets better if you have God with you. You are really a catch! A good catch! Made me think that I might have done something good in my past life to have you in my present.

 
You have become my provider, my shelter and my shield. Remember the day that I got lost in Hanoi? It was raining and I wasn’t able to get to where I should be because of language barrier between me and the taxi driver. He just drop me off in the middle of the street soaking wet without any access to transportation because no one understands English and it was a bit secluded. It was hopeless. I look so pathetic crying on the road thinking what have I got myself into. Then I just gave you a call and my battery is almost empty and wasn’t able to give you the complete address just the street yet you came minutes after and I was so surprised how did you able to find me. I was the happiest. You are like my knight in shining armour. I felt so protected.

 
We were so happy together. We conquered every scrutinizing stare of the Vietnamese grannies whenever we pass by them. We traveled together and made plans for the future. We were unstoppable. It felt like we have everything within our reach. I am bad at remembering small details but I promise I remember those times that you wait for me to come home for us to eat together, those times where you smirk on my jokes, when you dance in your weird dance moves, how you iron ur clothes in detail, how you carefully comb ur hair and how you hate pho. The food that you like and the food that you hate. Oh how can I forget the fact that your favorite singer is TAYLOR SWIFT. 😂😂😂.

 
You were the YIN to my YANG and you taught me almost everything. You taught me how to choose my battles, how to act accordingly, how to mature and how to be near to God. You were my bestfriend and older brother. You basically taught me everything that I needed to mature gracefully but still I didn’t.

 
I remember the first time that I made you cry. I felt guilty. God only knows how I felt tha time. You know exactly what I am talking about. It was even unforgivable but you choose to stay because you said your love is deeper and bigger than those challenges. That exact moment, I realized the kind of love that you have for me. I can’t explain it by words. It was fatherly, brotherly and just comforting. (God, can’t help crying as I write this, I guess I just missed you so much).

 
I guess I just shared too much about us, my point is. I want the world to know how good you are and there are still people like you. Sometimes, we are too focused on believing that everyone is the same. If you found that one person who can move mountains and who is willing to do everything for you, don’t take them for granted. Take care of that love and nurture it. I know that there will be differences but find common grounds and respect the person. You might only have one chance to meet such.

 
To you who is reading this, Thank you so much for the love that you have given. I am a better person because of you. I have live my life knowing that I can do all things that I put my heart and focus on because of you. Thank you for believing in me even at times that me myself can’t find enough courage to do things. Thank you for everything that you are. There will always be a piece of you wherever I go. You will always have that special part in my heart where no one can fill. Thank you for sacrificing a lot of you so I may have the best in life. That is the best feeling ever! Thank you for fighting for me and for just making me a better person.

 
I wish you all the best in life! I know you will eventually get there because u are the most hardworking and the most dedicated person that I have known! I will be the happiest if you will fulfill those dreams we set! I know that the road seems endless recently but I know it will only get better. If the universe would pull us back together in the future (which I pray), I hope you would still see me the way that you see me the first day. Don’t get me wrong. I wish you will find that person who will love you and will treat you way better than I did. You deserve that. You deserve all the love and goodness this world has to offer!

The time that we had together were the best that I ever had. Thank you for giving me memories that I can cherish forever. I just wished I could have done better. I am really sorry for the things that I did and for the things that I didn’t.

 
I will always love you. Please don’t forget that!